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Have you ever been offered a job that seemed too good to be true?

One organization chased me for years, wanting me to take on the role of their creative director. The job would have required me to uproot my family and move again… this time out of LA… away from where I believed I was meant to be.
After each polite refusal these guys would offer more  money and bigger perks.

Their last offer was kind of crazy…”They would pay me $150k per year plus a large deposit on a house of my choosing and all I had to do was be an influence over the creative team… I didn’t have to do any specific work or show up at any given time…

“Please… just live amongst us!”

I said no…  It was just too good to be true.

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The Curious Music Maker

What happens when the curious child in us makes music or writes songs?

When we feel no pressure from adults, from peers or society, trends, the popular people, the FB likes, our audience or fans, the leaders of our community and or the Boss that signs the checks… we are free to say what we want and… how we want.
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We could experiment with topics, rhymes, beats, time, instrumentation, lyrics and so on.

We could, in a sense, throw musical paint at a canvas to see what it looks/sounds like.

Or we could just turn the canvas upside down? It might be what we had in mind but couldn’t say in an upright position.

With no one to impress… what can you hear or see in your curious child imagination?

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It Begins with Encounter

Encounter = Identity = Fearless

Through an encounter with God we discover our identity. And, as the ‘real me’ emerges from under the blanket of lies, hurts, disappointments, failures, confusion and other calamities that shape our false identity, we begin to become a fearless person.

Fearless to be ourselves and do what we ‘came here’ to do.
But the encounter part is a daily process not a once off epiphany.
It is so easy to let few days go by, then a week… without even a moment with our Creator and as a consequence, we begin to forget who we are. And then we become fearful and start to worry that what we are doing is not really so important, that people secretly disdain our self-expression and that the circumstances surrounding us (that are worsening by the minute)  make it impossible or pointless to proceed.

And in this state of unreality we mope around with an attitude of ‘ why bother’.

But an encounter ignites the mindfulness of His reality… of who we really are and what we are to do today… and the next day.
If I find Him I will find myself and if I find myself I will find Him.
 The facts maybe one thing but the truth is another thing entirely.  And this truth of who we are is only gathered through one encounter…  and then another… and another…

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I had a lovely moment alone at the office early this morning and at some point I began to sing this phrase…

“I left the door open for you… so come right in”

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“I have given you keys to every door… ever made”

And then I saw a moving picture (kind of dream sequence) of me in a type of an old castle, down deep in the dungeons and on a wall I found a large key ring with keys of all sizes. Each key represented a door. The smaller keys belonged to the doors that I was already able to open… and each key’s size was determined by either how much I used it or understood how to use it or… believed in its actual existence.

Some keys were too big for me to even lift.

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And so I looked at one of the largest keys and saw that it was for the door to wealth. I dragged the key over to a door that was locked and I knew somehow that this door had two names. On the side facing me it was called Poverty, but… I sensed that speaking to this door was the secret to the key… rather than any heavy lifting… and after I spoke to the door to open, I saw that the other side of the door was called Wealth.

For as I waited there asking wisdom about the keys I understood that the shape of a key was merely a symbol, for the kingdom keys come in many shapes and forms. A key could be speaking or proclaiming, it could be giving or sacrificing or letting go, it could be waiting still, fasting, calling on the name of Jesus, loving unconditionally, obedience, repenting, serving, following, worshiping alone or calling many others to worship.

And in this ‘dream scape’ I knew that the keys to the kingdom had been given to all of us. We are all invited inside the kingdom and, when we are in that place we can begin to decipher each key, understand its value, its purpose and learn how and when to use each key.

I stayed in that dream place for as long as I could… considering the use and purpose of different keys. I tried speaking and singing to several doors that seemed locked to me and in this realm, when one large door opened I saw another picture of me standing on a platform in the sky, just above my earthly life. I could see LA, my house, all around the greater city and then I understood that, while I could freely enter this place of quietness, wisdom and presence, it was right here where I am today, not on some distant mountain top. It is a slightly foreign notion to accept… that the door is always open, that I am invited, and that it is up to me to enter… and linger as long as I am able.

The Release

I want to invite you to watch our new short film entitled “The Release” which tells the story of a victim of child abuse who, after an encounter with a mysterious man, finds the courage to let go of her past and allow the healing process to begin in her life.

The film will challenge some viewers, while playing the role of a timely intervention to others.

Emotional wounds are not so easily detected or understood. There is no X-ray machine on which we can lay our broken hearts or troubled minds and for many of us, the wounds of our childhood, having been left untreated for so long have caused us to limp through life without any understanding or belief in a cure or… release.

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Waiting for God Oh!

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I am inspired by the 4th century desert fathers and mothers…. ordinary people who chose the way of the hermit…. sensing to leave behind all their belongings, their friends, their reputations, their dreams…. they embraced a life of solitude in the deserts of Egypt, Palestine and Syria. Of course public opinion raged against them….. they were deemed crazy…… and though many were poorly educated peasants, former slaves and prostitutes, some of these and prostitutes, some of these men and woman were giving up vast incomes, houses, careers and good family names….. all in the search of something better……. something they knew they couldn’t find in their current lifestyles.

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Waiting isn’t easy…. if it were… well… anyone could do it.